Re: Live Feed Updates Wednesday 9/6/17
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Xmas talks to the camera about her real feelings for Paul
Xmas im so confused.. and my heart.. I think about the rest of the game and how it unfolds.. and im always in my head.. and im always in the game.. if i let my guard down for a half a second.. and there is';a camera on me.. and my heart flutters.. and i dont know what i feel half the time well i know what im feeling and that's the scary part.. and post show i know how things works people dont stay in touch and friendship changes.. and im ok with the pre proclaimed friendships.. that will fall thru the cracks.. even though i may keep[ in touch most friendships wont stay cuz they weren't established..
but they have been established with paul josh jason alex and kevin.
i wish i can hold raven's hand and say let go and let everything jsut be.
im just not normally in a position where my heart gets away from me and my heart is getting away form me.. (laughs) and now another turn of anxiety and pressure and confusion and physical and emotional heart ache..
and i just.. i want to talk freely.. and chat and ask questions and get answers and i want to be my jous self. and it's tugging on my heart that im so reserved here.. and i cant say how i feel and tell people what i think of them good and bad.. and you know just im in the purgatory of emotion.
Xmas watching paul on spy screen in kitchen
Xmas sometimes my heart stops.. what are you doing?(to herself about paul in kitchen)
Paul makes me smile.. there's a little nugget of information
Xmas im going to come out of here and discover whether my heart is broken or healed.
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Last edited by UgotBronx; 09-07-2017 at 09:59 am.
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